Thursday, August 27, 2009
its been awhile
It has been almost 3 weeks from the day Shengyao had passed away.
Everyone of us are trying to lead back to our normal life. But whenever I thought of him, somehow.. it still pains me in my heart. I still couldn't believe it deep in my heart. I refused to read on those newspaper articles that was published last week about the incident. I want to forget it, but it still float in my mind.
Today, is our FYP team meeting in vivian's house. Sheryl was late for meeting and it was raining heavily outside. She told me she is riding her friend's car to come. But it worries me even more. Raining, didn't pick up call, in a car. Negative thoughts came to me. I became paranoid out of sudden, I just keep on trying to reach her out. Until finally, She replied her sms to Vinson. I had finally make a peace in my mind.
Maybe I am over paranoid over losing friends. I hope this won't come anymore....
Shengyao, he is always a boy gaves me advice and hope, even he is gone, he never fail to give me one too. Always treasure people around you and lead your life well.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Sending off a good friend
wearing a black top, bringing myself to go to the place where I am not suppose to attend, mandai crematorium.
The environment is intense, grieve, sadness, all kind of words that you can describe in that place. All of us are waiting for him to arrive, for us to send him to his final journey.
The moment he raised, all his friends and family members, relatives, burst out crying, hoping this is not true, it is just a nightmare that everyone has. But... a hope is still a hope, we can't change the fact.
Before his sending off, we took a tour to look at him for the last time, seeing his pale face with those stitches on his face, cause my heart pain. And telling myself, this shouldn't be the case, this is not he suppose to end up in. Even until now, I or we, still can't believe this happening.
Even after their death, the public still scolding them for their stupidity. But why! who are they to judge their cause of death? are they GOD?! NO! No one can judge!
Friday, August 7, 2009
a sudden phone call....
Nadia:" Damien, are you free now?"
Damien:"mm..ya? what is it?"
Nadia:"I got something to tell you..."
Damien:"mm?"
Nadia:"Shengyao... pass away already, along with his girlfriend while taking the monorail to malaysia this morning."
Why do such a joke has to come to us, I would rather it is just a prank news. Why such a boy filled with passion and future has to die..
I remembered those days, we had our fun time together playing dota after school. His curiosity brings us together like brothers.
Recently, seeing him in train sitting with her girlfriend holding their hands together listening to one mp3 with their eyes closing, it is such a peaceful picture that had created, even I feel happy for them.
And now... they are killed by train... this is such unpleasant moment! WHY FATE HAD TO END THEIR LIFE!! WHY WHY WHY!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, August 6, 2009
YAH! FYP OVER!
YYYAAHHH! FYP OVERRR!!!