Friday, April 24, 2009
Master of None.
It's been awhile...
Suddenly feel like writing....
All the while in my life in RP, I thought I am someone will be able to create a name for myself by going into game industry and works on my dream as a game designer. But when I look at all my friends whom are around my age, they already get what they want in life, be it family, career, they had already fulfill part of they achievement in life. But what about me? what am I still doing in a polytechnic, even if I compared myself to younger people, I know nuts about designing. There are so many people who re stronger than I am. I felt 'defeated' in some sense.
Now... I suspected myself getting some unknown illness, but seems like no one is believing it. I have to hide everything under my sleeve. Another reason is, I have to keep it away from my mom and prevent her from worrying about me. I am suppose to take care of her in future, not giving her anymore burden. I wish to have a longer life to protect her till the end. And I hope it is something not so serious and ease my worries.
I am just a master of none, as compared to people around my age. They have talent, charisma, popularity. I am just a zero, no recognition, no encouragement. I started to lose hope in alot of thing. But I hope to do things which won't make me to go regret when I am going to die.
Although I am master of none, but I will try to do my best to fulfil my dream and move on with life.
